Stuck

I need another language, more words to express.
Because these days I've been depressed.
Feeling kind of stuck between my desire and my reality,
Stuck between he loves me, he loves me not.
Stuck between God and my broken heart.
I want to be counted on but that's just not me.
7 is for starters, 9 is more me.
Too many hours in a day to stay alone a pray.
So I sleep a few of them down to make it easier to say:
I love you Lord, thank you for this day...it's your power and strength I need today.